i know the words to this one by Julian Lawrence

i know the words to this one

A mixed media collage with a picture of a large black bag of garbage next to a birthday cake, test over the image reads ‘I think I might be God’s blind spot.

The text of the poem written in pink pen with a border of blue stars, a yellow star is in each corner

Transcript:

i bring cake to house parties;

i wash the dishes. flirty, filthy frenzy.

plastic bag trash can. let me take

the rubbish out, give me something

to taste for you, that’s love. maybe

i am alone because i would never

lick the floor. disgusting smears of you

on tarpaulins, in wet grass

tracked onto the carpet. first your skin,

then the limes we cut in the dirt.

then you smiling on the couch,

neither here nor there, humid eyes and

halfway conversations. nobody is listening

while they count down the best sounds

of this season of the end of the world.

first, your pop rock laugh. then,

my static hands zapping your

soft question of a body, joint-to-joint –

we’ll probably never be shopping trolleys

mashing in abandoned parking lots

with thunder, but for a moment

i can imagine. i think i might be

God’s blind spot. in the morning,

take me somewhere – church or

mountaintop – where He can’t miss me,

and you realise you can. for the first time

in years, my hands are still

and so is the water. no music

or heart swell. only you arcing

folds through the afternoon air,

for a pair of wings to put away that we’ll

never use.

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